Back At Me
(2003)

Survey the future melting colors blurring faint lights of aspiration
Falling through the spires of hatred clutching at life with trepidation
Why must insanity breeding anxiety scratch at my mortal coil
All things the same, everyday curses with sadness and shame
Hypocritical wisps streaming lies webbed before you, entangling me
Emptiness that hurts with every drawn breath, sulphur intoxicates the air
Fear and pain ripping through rifts growing into something godly in size
Do you deserve a privileged existence are you such a superstar among the many deity's
War inside my head battles far and wide battling for what my mind calls normality

I look at myself looking back at me.. grinning wide is the evil burning within me
Suicide never gives you what you really want, only taints what was closest and dear
Slashing away the pain, lost my way on paths overgrown to blind to see
Will I never be the same, perceiving a world that courses with hatred untamed
Grinding teeth with white knuckles bleeding forth through the scars never healed
Compromise is a lost concept between magnificent walls of bemused control
Can you drain a glass empty the once filled cup just to see the world anew?
My soul for a promised price? My inner self offered for lies and mistruths?

Words ripping through mental barricades depressed mania trusted unto you
Taking your lies into the abyss, mistrusting words summoned verbal abuse
Can you give back the years that decayed before my very eyes
Screams float through silence my way infecting every cornrer of my mind
Stand in front of your fallen image, glaring into the crusted past
Waste myself on you, treading through the depths of a lost innocence
Crevasses that drag you down into nothingness a never ending tormented fall
Did I come here alone? Weights pulling strong against my minds tendency
Was it I that dragged myself to this place? All indictations point back at Me


Jer OC © 2003, Metalwood Inc.™ since 1988